Monday, December 7, 2009

I don't need to know you love me

'I don't need to know you love me'
He stood there and didn't know what to say. At first he took insult he then took shame. A heavy hurt weighed on his heart. He decided to walk away.
He thought to himself give people what they need as they should get want they want for themselves.
The women never put to rest his need but he still watched her undress as she stops to say
'I don't need to know you love me'
'But I could be a more important part of your life... Ah well fuck you I'll take what I want too' so we walked and took some of her pride.


- Sleeps

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Rolling Soul

I'm just a soul rolling through the cold
No one knows which way to go
So why stall why fall
Why curl at the happening swells
When I can boldly answer the call
In root in flow man it's just a show
Like the third of January snow
I'm slow man I know but make sure I avoid the stupid and those cold sharpe hearts of stone
Much blaze in fire I'd gladly retire to the heat I've been swimming alone and cooling out in the sea am I ready for land am I ready for soil am I ready for a hand of toil?
Nah man I'm ready for you to be ready for me just two souls in love with the scene
I'll be a king if you could be a queen
And for you girl I'll gladly sing that
---
She she she
wouldn't be with you you you
If you you you
Were not you
'cause everyone else is just passing the time
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And you know I I I
wouldn't be with you you you
If you you you
Were not you
'cause everyone else is just passing the time and if I had time to say...
I'd simply hold you

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Sunday, October 11, 2009

An explanation of Todd Mckenzie?



An explanation of Todd Mckenzie?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Ask

He found strangers easier.
Would even prefer their company sometimes.
He could giggle and stare. excersie his right to be 'weird'
Never saw the point in the women. They just wanted someone to push away.
Never saw the point in the man. They just wanted soomeone to listen to them. even if only themselves.
He'd much rather ask a random person directions to somewhere he'd already know how to get to just to thank them prefusely and maybe make them feel needed or at least useful.
A comfortable love to give but never sure what to ask for. This is what kept him from others.
So there he sits, awaiting to ask for something. if only he could figure what.

Fast to fall

I’m tired of my words under achieving
The best I could do for you is silent thought
But I’m a loud mouth who wears his heart on his sleeve
I’m not sure anything could change that so I laugh at my misfortune and count the words from you
And the words from you stop me in my tracks and forces me to breathe.
I am so glad to do so finally

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Yourself

I have so many aggressive things to say to you
that's why I don’t like thinking about you
I have so many beautiful words to write and send to you as i only wish the best for you...
So you can see where the contrast lays
You are beautiful but these words are bias
You are cruel and only apologies to make yourself feel better
I'd give almost anything to say we both live and learn but it seems that you do not
(as you are unchanged)
Maybe I’m more astute than you are
Maybe you don’t give a shit, you just needed temporary comfort
But as my lost one taught me you have to listen to peoples actions and minor movements as words can be forged
whether intentional or otherwise we find our soul in the sickness of greed & bitterness
So please burn thoughts of yourself
By not thinking of yourself AS yourself you open the possibility of finally becoming yourself, playful & resilient, curious & humorous, radiating joy & love for yourself and others to feel

Friday, April 3, 2009

The Beauty of Vanity

I don’t look at pictures of her thinking she is beautiful.
I instead find the fact that she takes so many pictures of herself interesting... Well I find it amazingly beautiful, the vanity itself keeping me in awe.

I’m not very fond of art museums or exhibitions.
If I do find myself in one I often pay more attention to those people looking at the art as opposed to the art itself. People finding things interesting are amazingly interesting to watch.

If you stand perfectly still and watch you can see some people really don’t care. To them 'culture' is something you have to be a part of just for the sake of stating 'ow, yes i have seen that piece' and follow it up with a regurgitation of some other critics view on the piece.

Some laugh and say ‘last time I was outside of course’ when you ask them the last time they’ve seen the sky, others can stop and show you pictures they’ve taken.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Darker light

Some simply like to be seen in darker light than others
Some like to express via means they cannot be seen through
Comment or acknowledgement neither undermines or justifies.
So why (not)?

Two More Years

strange how my profile is precieved to be me.
I drink more than usual. beers followed by shots.
Usually such a nice guy but have managed to piss off everyone here tonight
I shout abuse over to the posers and spit at her feet.
I then finally stumble backward into a chair..
she sits beside me, calmly places her hand on my shoulder and asks why I'm acting out like this.
She's the only one who doesn't freak out and is unaffraid of my temper.
She walks straigh past all my walls and calms me with her soft words.
i both despize and love her for that.
i tell her 'no one seems to be able to heal me... maybe a little more time self destructing could help me re-build'
I'll give it two more years
i'll give her one more change
they'll give me $20 to leave in a cab.
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I don't want to check my messages as i'm affraid from who they're not from.

Friday, February 27, 2009

People affraid of people

A lot would say they are not as they find it easy enough to speak and perform all the gestures that pass for interaction these days
But no one really opens up
Are they affraid of who that person is or of who they are themselves?
Do we all live by the question "Is it worth the risk?"
The risk of pain?... Pain?
We use to adventure as kids
We use to jump from the trees and graze our knees!
Some kids grow to learn how to tuck and roll
Other kids simply stop climbing the tree
and which kid, may i ask, is you?

Monday, February 23, 2009

Too Little or Too Late?

Is it preference or duty that holds her?
Is it love or understanding that lets go of him?
The numb grows quicker each time
Will there be anything left of him after this?
"Aaaaanswers on a post card for your chance to win a one night stand!"
...It’s the hope that keeps him stupid
She constantly repeats to herself “Stay with those who are easy to leave”
He sits still and eventually whispers calmly “I’m O.K to sink”

Friday, February 6, 2009

It was you in the water

He felt so good to be down.
So nervous. He read what he had written for her and smiled.
Folded it up four times and left it under a glass in the bar.
Maybe he hoped it would help or at least bring a smile to some other poor soul.
it wasn't the adrenaline that kept me warm in the water, it was you.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Sneaky peek or Heart wide open?

I always giggle when i see a guy having a sneaky peek at a pretty girl or vise versa. Either on the street/bus/tube/ferry, we've all done it and it's pretty enjoyable. Question is, when did we have to stop showing others that we find them interesting?

Or maybe a better question would be:
What came first the interest or the rejection?

We've all been rejected in some way and unfortunately alot of us do not take what we can from it and instead harden and become cold (good or bad that's up to you). It's a damn shame the she never wanted him or that he cheated on her but in all we live and learn or do not live at all.

But then there comes expressing to those you know, love and trust. Some can, some cant. I've been told many times that i'm 'distant' but then i've also expressed my feeling to those close to me and recieved uncomfortable reactions, leading me to believe the reason we were so close is that i may be quite distant and that they simply enjoy and find comfort in not having to 'deal with all that stuff'.

Those who demand attension and reassurance that you care... well i've never got on with those people. Forced is fake and silence does NOT mean you dont care.
The very fact in can sit on the sofa next to someone without the need to speak should tell them something and to be honest i do not really feel the need to entertain their insecurity if they cannot see that.... Thoughts anyone?

Friday, January 16, 2009

We’re all geeks in some way

I love loving things. I’m not too cool to get excited when my favourite band is coming to my city & am confident enough to laugh with others at myself for being so in to and particular about certain things... Admittedly this does sometimes result in quite a few conversations ending with blank faces. Lol!

Check it
http://www.ted.com/talks/brian_greene_on_string_theory.html

Maybe you know all the words to Annie the musical, maybe you can identify every part of an engine or maybe you simply collect comics. Whatever it is keep it up as remember without intrigue we are stagnant & without detail we are undefined.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Intro

I’d like to open with an intro or a proposal, if you will, on what the idea of this blog is based upon. I intend to explore something which I have given some thought to time to time but cannot be easily defined. An idea that there is a fundamental level at which we all find a content state of being or as some may loosely state - ‘happiness’. Philosophers have debated over what happiness actually is for a long while and one of the most memorable quotes I’ve read to date is

“Happiness is an activity of the soul in accords to the perfect virtue” –Aristotle,

The key word her being “activity”, so not a place, object or possession. But all that aside my intension is to look at those ‘things’ in this world which transport us to that place of momentary calm and clarity (please note some of these 'things' themselves may not necessarily be a clam or clear activity but interesting to find still, for me at least, does something that not many other things can do).

I’m not in the habit or have any interest in stating things I know nothing of so will comment on experience in the forms of places, spaces and people I have encountered.

Hope you enjoy or at least find this mildly interesting.

- Sleeps