Darker light

Some simply like to be seen in darker light than others
Some like to express via means they cannot be seen through
Comment or acknowledgement neither undermines or justifies.
So why (not)?

Two More Years

strange how my profile is precieved to be me.
I drink more than usual. beers followed by shots.
Usually such a nice guy but have managed to piss off everyone here tonight
I shout abuse over to the posers and spit at her feet.
I then finally stumble backward into a chair..
she sits beside me, calmly places her hand on my shoulder and asks why I'm acting out like this.
She's the only one who doesn't freak out and is unaffraid of my temper.
She walks straigh past all my walls and calms me with her soft words.
i both despize and love her for that.
i tell her 'no one seems to be able to heal me... maybe a little more time self destructing could help me re-build'
I'll give it two more years
i'll give her one more change
they'll give me $20 to leave in a cab.
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I don't want to check my messages as i'm affraid from who they're not from.