Mids

Awake at 3am
Just like back then
I use to used the time writing music and texting friends things I usually would not.
It was dark out and people were sleeping so it was like whispering emotions and dreams without being caught.
When awake to question my words I would already be gone.
I live while you sleep and work while you wake



- Sleeps

Waiting rooms

The man reaches for "woman's health"
I could think of a thousands practical jokes I could run and laugh my ass of... But these places are very sensitive to peoples privacy.
Why am I sat here?
It's all way past faults but I gotta better myself. Tired of feeling so shit and looping around the same thoughts and "predicaments".

"Life seriously damages health"
If I am to die would I kill myself?
Would it be strength or weakness to...
Die on your own terms?

I still feel lonely and lost but is manageable and sometimes an adventure when alone.

- Sleeps

Wash away

She only really speaks with me when in-between boyfriends.
But it washes away...

Angels, you found so hard to find i guess that's the curse of being one of a kind


- Sleeps

Slow

Separate and slow down
You don't feel tired but the lack of urgency is obvious
All the moments are no longer stored for fantasy but left alone as absurd.
I enjoy the beats


- Sleeps

Interpret

Please misunderstand me
Interpret me as you see fit
I am open and on display
Please do not confirm the interpretation it will only change
Speak of me
And through others I shall hear your heart



- Sleeps

Inbox

He sees a message in the inbox
He does not see who it is from
Limitation of the platform he's using to check
He doesn't check straight away
He likes to wait on it for 10 to 15 minutes
He imagines the message is from her.
Imagines it's that long awaited message out of the blue asking how he was and if she could speak with him, maybe come to visit and possibly even stay with him.
She never knew how she felt but maybe start slow and just hang out as mates.
She wanted to share what she couldn't with anyone else and she was open to seeing if he had come as far as he said he had.
It was the most exciting and happiest 10 to 15 minutes he'd receive but eventually had to open the message.


- Sleeps

Way too comfy

Hardly the gutter girl
I'm way too comfy
Gotta move on up the hill shed the stress of the monthly
Got no shame nor shame again
But little immbarased when without my pen
Next man remember from way back when
Use to laugh at the sparse of mans ocean
Feet now frozen what the he'll am I holding
On to
Felt like such a fool
So now I gotta change me 'cause I can't change you


- Sleeps

(life)s

She spoke with excitement listing all of the things we would encounter together: "nights out, holidays together, moving in, companionship, children..."
She then stopped, turned and looked at me to say "ow, but I hope you don't expect us to be together forever"


- Sleeps