An explanation of Todd Mckenzie?

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He found strangers easier.
Would even prefer their company sometimes.
He could giggle and stare. excersie his right to be 'weird'
Never saw the point in the women. They just wanted someone to push away.
Never saw the point in the man. They just wanted soomeone to listen to them. even if only themselves.
He'd much rather ask a random person directions to somewhere he'd already know how to get to just to thank them prefusely and maybe make them feel needed or at least useful.
A comfortable love to give but never sure what to ask for. This is what kept him from others.
So there he sits, awaiting to ask for something. if only he could figure what.

Fast to fall

I’m tired of my words under achieving
The best I could do for you is silent thought
But I’m a loud mouth who wears his heart on his sleeve
I’m not sure anything could change that so I laugh at my misfortune and count the words from you
And the words from you stop me in my tracks and forces me to breathe.
I am so glad to do so finally

Yourself

I have so many aggressive things to say to you
that's why I don’t like thinking about you
I have so many beautiful words to write and send to you as i only wish the best for you...
So you can see where the contrast lays
You are beautiful but these words are bias
You are cruel and only apologies to make yourself feel better
I'd give almost anything to say we both live and learn but it seems that you do not
(as you are unchanged)
Maybe I’m more astute than you are
Maybe you don’t give a shit, you just needed temporary comfort
But as my lost one taught me you have to listen to peoples actions and minor movements as words can be forged
whether intentional or otherwise we find our soul in the sickness of greed & bitterness
So please burn thoughts of yourself
By not thinking of yourself AS yourself you open the possibility of finally becoming yourself, playful & resilient, curious & humorous, radiating joy & love for yourself and others to feel

The Beauty of Vanity

I don’t look at pictures of her thinking she is beautiful.
I instead find the fact that she takes so many pictures of herself interesting... Well I find it amazingly beautiful, the vanity itself keeping me in awe.

I’m not very fond of art museums or exhibitions.
If I do find myself in one I often pay more attention to those people looking at the art as opposed to the art itself. People finding things interesting are amazingly interesting to watch.

If you stand perfectly still and watch you can see some people really don’t care. To them 'culture' is something you have to be a part of just for the sake of stating 'ow, yes i have seen that piece' and follow it up with a regurgitation of some other critics view on the piece.

Some laugh and say ‘last time I was outside of course’ when you ask them the last time they’ve seen the sky, others can stop and show you pictures they’ve taken.

Darker light

Some simply like to be seen in darker light than others
Some like to express via means they cannot be seen through
Comment or acknowledgement neither undermines or justifies.
So why (not)?

Two More Years

strange how my profile is precieved to be me.
I drink more than usual. beers followed by shots.
Usually such a nice guy but have managed to piss off everyone here tonight
I shout abuse over to the posers and spit at her feet.
I then finally stumble backward into a chair..
she sits beside me, calmly places her hand on my shoulder and asks why I'm acting out like this.
She's the only one who doesn't freak out and is unaffraid of my temper.
She walks straigh past all my walls and calms me with her soft words.
i both despize and love her for that.
i tell her 'no one seems to be able to heal me... maybe a little more time self destructing could help me re-build'
I'll give it two more years
i'll give her one more change
they'll give me $20 to leave in a cab.
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I don't want to check my messages as i'm affraid from who they're not from.