Drain

All that stuff is just mentally draining.
Diversity and absurd reasoning - use to think that feels best but maybe it just hurts least.
All the intake, somethings surely got to give way and all fall through.
All the 'soul searching'?
Ok fine...
But finding who you are? Who gives a shit? You could answer that in every action and decision you make even if it's not the one wished to make... That would, in turn, simply define you as a coward or a brave one with ideals.
But then there's the self destructive nature when we can(not?) have what we want even if we don't know what that is.

Why would you do that?
In some ways I'm glad it happened. The vex woke me now my first reaction is to get out there and use people for whatever I want at that time... But then how does that differ from before?
The measurement of the difference is... What?

The queen says relationships should be easy. I agree.
Mow I believe I'm out of my own way it's grand.
Give me 5 minutes you'll want to feel me again and I will never let go or let down because you are now more important than I am.

Directional rock

I had her
On my arm
She hugged and clung
She could fall asleep on my shoulder
She would fall and fall
She would climb the rock that was me but not all the way
She would never climb all the way. Maybe it was the height. Maybe the dangerous fall.
Not a playful child, rather a sturdy place to sit.

I wake, slowly crack back and neck stone on stone.
Now clay when I see her. A subtle hint of hurt as she does not look this way.
Maybe she is too nervous to
Maybe she does not want to risk me seeing her look this way
Maybe looking this way has not even crossed her mind...
But I love waiting all the same. It's the only way I feel I feel in this way these days

Takes me back to waiting to wave. What interesting days they were :)

- Sleeps

Wait and dance

I waited and waited but you were a no show... Gutted
We WERE the party bus and I confused at her reasoning for making such a strange advance.
It's either love me or hate me nothing in-between she said. I just don't believe the things you do.
One never came
One was looking for what use to be
One stalked and clung
One shied but defined the difference between elegance and warmth.
I love my life and have become to love my death... As it's not all that bad not having what you want.

Ps I love you too


- Sleeps

I wonder many people minds are drifting. Drifting away from this moment in time.
Into our thoughts or in to our day. Into my fingers.
I only like drinking with certain people... Some of which are friends.
I like that voice. I like when my mind takes the time to take it's time. I feel calm.

The responsibility of an unfinished, un-adhered to process annoys me. Anything to save them money right?

Cunt stole my time - again!

- Sleeps

Pulse

There's a train that travels out to a place I never go.
The train passes over a road which holds gloriously deep purple trees.
The movement and speed of the train only gives you 2 seconds of visibility. 2 seconds of colour that engulfs the whole journey.


- Sleeps

White beer

It was so loud I couldn't hear myself which I liked
And the random exclusiveness of the free booze left me in silent trouble... For which I have actually been bad. So blaze is what has come across as comfortable... So these spiral stairs will set the stage for who can ignore who the most.
Fuck this and late night for naughty secrets.
I like the place on my own

- Sleeps

This old guitar

This old guitar
Pulls my heart
And I last
She asks no longer
And I am stronger
For not replying


- Sleeps