A letter to Granddad

i heard you're not doing too well
it's a strange feeling when they confirm you dont have forever here
already sad to think i wont be able to interactive with you.
Everyone has a minimal few in their life who really contribute to their personality
i'm very happy to say you've contributed a great deal to mine, which in turn has fundamentaly helped define me.
I think the biggest part of me that you gave and taught me was the humour.
Not just the darker side of it but the depth of it.
Humour's not just about laughing or making others laugh. it's about understanding and excepting certain things.
Like getting burnt hahaaha

Eating shedded wheat on a dinner plate with hot milk will always take me back to your kitchen and watching you patiently awaiting the milk to be ready for me.
you stood behind me when Candice died. i was sat on the curb for who knows how long but you stood there until i was ready. You then sat me down with a large glass of whiskey and never said a word. i liked that. i really liked that.
i cant articulate but i took a lot from that
you never tried to be - you simple were. And i need that. i really needed that.

I hope i can oneday have a family so i can tell them about you... In the straightest of lights, my granddad.