enjoyment.focus.reason.
i could go mad in this room.
I see myself talking to myself for hours.
This empty room. i don't speak aloud as i'm not keen on the slight echoed sound.
rocking in a stable chair.
rehearsing my goodbyes to those i like and have done good for me.
Its so intriguing to see myself interested in people. the expressions that switch on when i see them. i acknowledge it and even feel it i think. but the doubt nulls the emotion. so i suppose thats my next victim…. or perhaps i'm just waiting for the happiness to be my own.
The child my own creation.
the relationship my own struggle.
The life my own victory.
People seem to find life hard but relationships relatively easy
i'm just the opposite. life's the easy part. but on quiet reflection as much as i'm hesitant to admit… i have relations. and i owe them more that my life is worth.
Todd Mckenzie once said - "The only advantage of being smart is that you can act dumb"
I'm beginning to think cowards act dumb.
As much as you think you know more than others does not change the fact that you're afraid you will be alone for being you.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Blame
If everyone were perfect there'd be no such thing as relationships.
I love it when my heart beats.
In retrospect I think the leaps of progression were made when...
Well let me put it this way:
You don't seem to take responsibility for what you've done for the purposes of reconsiliation or progression but instead what you are very good at and focused on is blaming yourself for things you've done. For the purposes of what, you should ask. Or should you ask...? Self pity? Self destruction or 'hatred'? Ah man the word 'hatred' is a whole other matter hahaha.
It takes a long time to see the pointlessness in blame. It's shocking to the point of smiling how irrelivant blame is when you commit to a positive, constructive life.
"Don't forgive and forget, except and move on" - regardless of whether it takes you away or toward those you were to blame
So in this sense I suppose the word 'blame' could be used to the describe the masochistic tendencies of a person regardless of whether it's self blame or pointing the finger at others it still only damages yourself.
- Sleeps
I love it when my heart beats.
In retrospect I think the leaps of progression were made when...
Well let me put it this way:
You don't seem to take responsibility for what you've done for the purposes of reconsiliation or progression but instead what you are very good at and focused on is blaming yourself for things you've done. For the purposes of what, you should ask. Or should you ask...? Self pity? Self destruction or 'hatred'? Ah man the word 'hatred' is a whole other matter hahaha.
It takes a long time to see the pointlessness in blame. It's shocking to the point of smiling how irrelivant blame is when you commit to a positive, constructive life.
"Don't forgive and forget, except and move on" - regardless of whether it takes you away or toward those you were to blame
So in this sense I suppose the word 'blame' could be used to the describe the masochistic tendencies of a person regardless of whether it's self blame or pointing the finger at others it still only damages yourself.
- Sleeps
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