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Through desperation i faced up to the sky and was calmly reminded of the meaning i gave to falecity.

the double shots shielding me were a thing of the past and im left a burning man having to face these emotions.

But i don't trust my self in this state. 

I fear my need for clarification will ruin everything & the safe guard behind ambiguity is something i'm also too familiar w/

I'll sting for you if thats what you need from me… but theres only so much anyone can take and i'm afraid your lack of affection will surely eventually push my subconscious to other people.
I've never found myself to be important and slightly uncomfortable to find when others do.
If i were important to you, what should i do?

You're not the first to call me distant. I'm hoping you'll be the last.

I need to learn. I've asked to be taught before but this was too much for them so i'm simply asking for you to understand i'm learning and see mistakes will happened but rarely repeated.

I may need to see you less but call you more

I may need to see you more but do less with you

I may need your support but learn not to expect it

I may need to give you everything plus more and expect nothing but rejection in return.

I will heal

I will scar

I will dance 

I will. I will. Die inside.

- Sleeps

They took me

It took an answer
He was so calm and relaxed
No sense of threat or desperation
... It was relief that I felt and it took me a while to realise, it'd been so long since I last felt it.
He wasn't child like, but instead playful and confident
He wouldn't answer all questions, simply asked the purpose of some of them... Which made me question me and why I was asking them. Why I had once found them so important.
My colours were artificially natural to blend in but began to feel conscious
A comparison to him would be pointless.
I gave my life for something bigger than me but it was taken from me
They lay rest ill in bed. i wish them better.

- Sleeps