enjoyment.focus.reason.

enjoyment.focus.reason.
i could go mad in this room.
I see myself talking to myself for hours.
This empty room. i don't speak aloud as i'm not keen on the slight echoed sound.
rocking in a stable chair.
rehearsing my goodbyes to those i like and have done good for me.
Its so intriguing to see myself interested in people. the expressions that switch on when i see them. i acknowledge it and even feel it i think. but the doubt nulls the emotion. so i suppose thats my next victim…. or perhaps i'm just waiting for the happiness to be my own.
The child my own creation.
the relationship my own struggle.
The life my own victory.
People seem to find life hard but relationships relatively easy
i'm just the opposite. life's the easy part. but on quiet reflection as much as i'm hesitant to admit… i have relations. and i owe them more that my life is worth.
Todd Mckenzie once said - "The only advantage of being smart is that you can act dumb"
I'm beginning to think cowards act dumb.
As much as you think you know more than others does not change the fact that you're afraid you will be alone for being you.