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Through desperation i faced up to the sky and was calmly reminded of the meaning i gave to falecity.

the double shots shielding me were a thing of the past and im left a burning man having to face these emotions.

But i don't trust my self in this state. 

I fear my need for clarification will ruin everything & the safe guard behind ambiguity is something i'm also too familiar w/

I'll sting for you if thats what you need from me… but theres only so much anyone can take and i'm afraid your lack of affection will surely eventually push my subconscious to other people.
I've never found myself to be important and slightly uncomfortable to find when others do.
If i were important to you, what should i do?

You're not the first to call me distant. I'm hoping you'll be the last.

I need to learn. I've asked to be taught before but this was too much for them so i'm simply asking for you to understand i'm learning and see mistakes will happened but rarely repeated.

I may need to see you less but call you more

I may need to see you more but do less with you

I may need your support but learn not to expect it

I may need to give you everything plus more and expect nothing but rejection in return.

I will heal

I will scar

I will dance 

I will. I will. Die inside.

- Sleeps