Reason

I have something I want
I have something I don't want
I have something taken from me
I have to prepare
I have to be beaten
As I have no reason to win
Take what is mine as I am nothing
I hope it will make you something
.
I am worthy
I contribute and help influence positivity
I am good enough for happiness!
Out side of love
For love
This place is bigger than me
And I am here to serve all within it.

- Sleeps

Bridge, under-hook, escape

He wanted to emphasise the goodbye a little more.
He wanted to hold a little longer.
He remembers the day he once said "You have me... Now what will you do with me?"
He briefly thinks over life without this.
Without this he would become himself again
(bridge, under-hook, escape)
but without this he always would be.

- Sleeps

Too far

Please take my words with a pinch of salt. But when you take my words please do not hold them as I do not trust them in your hands.
Lets keep this momentary...
Even if I call this love...
Let's keep this clean.
It's just some fun but this game strikes nerves.
Singing in an empty room has a tenth of the emotion involved with showing you I did so.
So why so low? I find you annoying so should be fobbing this off through lack of patience

- Sleeps

String

Through desperation i faced up to the sky and was calmly reminded of the meaning i gave to falecity.

the double shots shielding me were a thing of the past and im left a burning man having to face these emotions.

But i don't trust my self in this state. 

I fear my need for clarification will ruin everything & the safe guard behind ambiguity is something i'm also too familiar w/

I'll sting for you if thats what you need from me… but theres only so much anyone can take and i'm afraid your lack of affection will surely eventually push my subconscious to other people.
I've never found myself to be important and slightly uncomfortable to find when others do.
If i were important to you, what should i do?

You're not the first to call me distant. I'm hoping you'll be the last.

I need to learn. I've asked to be taught before but this was too much for them so i'm simply asking for you to understand i'm learning and see mistakes will happened but rarely repeated.

I may need to see you less but call you more

I may need to see you more but do less with you

I may need your support but learn not to expect it

I may need to give you everything plus more and expect nothing but rejection in return.

I will heal

I will scar

I will dance 

I will. I will. Die inside.

- Sleeps

They took me

It took an answer
He was so calm and relaxed
No sense of threat or desperation
... It was relief that I felt and it took me a while to realise, it'd been so long since I last felt it.
He wasn't child like, but instead playful and confident
He wouldn't answer all questions, simply asked the purpose of some of them... Which made me question me and why I was asking them. Why I had once found them so important.
My colours were artificially natural to blend in but began to feel conscious
A comparison to him would be pointless.
I gave my life for something bigger than me but it was taken from me
They lay rest ill in bed. i wish them better.

- Sleeps

All I'm Good For

Love hurts and thats all it does.
My admiration for you makes you my greatest enemy
My absence from you makes me your greatest interest
Dancing soul through fields of thought, i ought to tell you... everything
so you may now hold all the power and i may crumble and destroy myself over again.
Love destroys and thats all it does.
Your fearlessness for me makes me your passing phase
Your presence pulls me out and exposes my heart to high winds
I become a stranger to myself, re-introduced to someone i left a long time ago
Someone i never enjoy seeing, i wish i were to learn more here
So why not?
Sun's morning light hits my face, soft voice hits my ears
Bruised pride and unsure direction
Love re-builds and that's all i can hope for.
The joy, the excitement, the transient hope which gives way to...
A re-formatted smile & burn just above my stomach
I cruelly am sorry no longer
You truly are awesome to me.
Slow and careful to handle
Love brings me to you.
(for which i will gladly hurt, destroy & rebuild myself for)

- Sleeps

Brilliantly stupid

A touch out of place but placed the only time it can be without risk of deep humiliation.
We bop, shift and sing on the train I laughed and laughed at your pointless questions.
The act is over and people who work here observe our misdirected walk
Fuck 'em, we're on fire and my water bottle won't put us out.
Knowing each other well we manipulate one another for what's best for each other. Idiots on a not so particular mission evolving each step.
We are.
Easy morning. Calm. Blue ocean and subtle beer.
Body tired from fighting but soul no longer in rehab.
Now the war no longer differs win or lose, it's all simply challenges and learning which is what my continuos happiness is based on...
If you can't be smart, be brilliantly stupid.

- Sleeps